Wednesday, February 27, 2008
All I’d been waiting for, was for you to consider
the distance between us, physically, then
emotionally. I thought stepping away for a while
would do the trick, would make you miss me. But all it was, was me
waiting tortuously for a phone call, an email, anything
to indicate that you cared; waiting for something to break the silence magnified
by each and every
mile of distance between us.

How foolish I’ve been.
I, who made it too easy for you, practically
begging you to
take me for granted.
I became the person I wanted you to be:
affectionate, thoughtful, sweet for no reason,
and always,
always loving.
(It’s really too bad I can’t date myself.)

I owe myself an apology
for the way I failed me.
“I’m sorry,” I whisper. “No more,
no more.”

© Copyright Clueless Cat @ http://twentysomethingandclueless.blogspot.com

3WW Words: apology, consider, distant (I took the liberty of using 'distance' instead...)

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22 Comments:

At February 27, 2008 at 6:26 PM, Blogger gautami tripathy said:
This happens with the best of us. And you did well turning away. No you don't owe yourself an apology.

lubricating
 



At February 27, 2008 at 10:03 PM, Blogger Andrea said:
You stand there and be brave! It is more than I can say I ever did. I appreciate your honesty and am glad you got it out there too! Hang in there!
 



At February 27, 2008 at 10:35 PM, Blogger anthonynorth said:
Knowing when to get out of a wrong situation is not an 'apologising' matter, but we often feel that way.
Well said.
 



At February 27, 2008 at 10:44 PM, Blogger Jane Doe said:
That is an amazing poem. I can so relate to it, I've done the same thing so many times before.
 



At February 27, 2008 at 11:05 PM, Blogger Leigh Lear said:
perfectly put
 



At February 28, 2008 at 1:34 AM, Blogger JenBun said:
I love the line, "I became the person I wanted you to be." I, too, have been guilty of that...
 



At February 28, 2008 at 1:51 AM, Blogger paisley said:
an excellent lesson in what really is in your sphere of control... nothing but you...

very nicely thought out piece....
 



At February 28, 2008 at 2:53 AM, Blogger tumblewords said:
Yes, it happens...sometimes more than once! Thoughtful piece...enjoyed the read.
 



At February 28, 2008 at 2:55 AM, OpenID corinajoyc said:
I love the comment about "why can't I date me".

Nicely done.
 



At February 28, 2008 at 3:09 AM, Blogger Girl in the 206 said:
Love it...powerful, yet simple. Don't apologize for learning something about yourself!
 



At February 28, 2008 at 5:15 AM, Blogger Linda Jacobs said:
I love the echo of "No more. No more" at the end! Some lessons are so hard to learn!
 



At February 28, 2008 at 6:11 AM, Blogger Laane said:
Very catching.

You can find my 3 words ::here::.

Have a great day!
 



At February 28, 2008 at 7:59 AM, Blogger TC said:
I have been trying to comment all day! Seriously, since you had three comments on this post and your word verification refused to show up... all day!

I loved this. It was so heartfelt and honest. I felt like I could have written it. I know I’ve thought it for sure.

How foolish I’ve been.
I, who made it too easy for you, practically
begging you to
take me for granted.
I became the person I wanted you to be:
affectionate, thoughtful, sweet for no reason,
and always,
always loving.
(It’s really too bad I can’t date myself.)


Wow. Seriously, just wow.

Wonderful, wonderful job on this.

I hope things get better for you. You deserve better than what you’re getting.
 



At February 28, 2008 at 8:21 AM, Blogger myrtle beached whale said:
No apology necessary. Great piece.
 



At February 28, 2008 at 10:42 AM, Blogger Marcia (MeeAugraphie) said:
Stepping away is a scary thing, that's why more people don't try it. Love the date myself line and the acknowledgment at the end.
 



At February 28, 2008 at 11:13 AM, Blogger Clueless Cat said:
Gautami: thank you, but i still feel i owe myself an apology; i'm the one to blame for putting myself out there until there was hardly anything to claim back...

Andrea: Thank you so much chica! xoxo

Anthonynorth: my apology is actually for putting myself in a vulnerable position, combined with extracting myself from the wrong situation. Thank you :)

Jane Doe: thank you!! it does seem to be something people can relate to, from the reactions i've been getting.

leigh: thank you :)

jenbun: yeah, writing that was a moment of clarity for me; i hadn't actually thought about it that way until this poem! so thank you :)

paisley: control really is an important part of this poem; thank you for recognizing that!

tumblewords: let's hope it doesn't happen again too soon...! thank you :)

corinajoyc: i've wondered that a few times, actually ;)

girl in the 206: thank you!! :)

linda: that's definitely true, and it's also true that sometimes, even if you KNOW something, that doesn't mean you'll follow through with your actions because you simply don't want to...

laane: thanks! will check yours out in a moment...

tc: thanks so much for your comment - sorry my word verification wasn't working? but thanks for coming back just to comment! i appreciate it. :)

Mrytle: thank you!

Marcia: very true. Thanks for the comment :)
 



At February 28, 2008 at 1:42 PM, Blogger WriterKat said:
Very nice. I also love the line about wishing you could date yourself. It certainly would be a lot easier than reading someone else's mind or waiting on them.
 



At February 29, 2008 at 4:22 AM, Blogger LittleWing said:
oh geez, that was very good...i loved the end..and the comment, too bad can't date myself...had to chuckle...
 



At February 29, 2008 at 8:40 AM, OpenID extemporaneous said:
Very nice. I'm 30something and right there with you, only add 15 years of marriage, 2 kids and a mortgage.

Take care of you and keep writing!
 



At February 29, 2008 at 10:48 AM, Blogger wwamazon said:
This is well-written and universal for so many of us who really believed in something that wasn't meant to be. Excellent piece and thank you for sharing!
-Amarettogirl

http://amarettogirl.squarespace.com/the-written-word/
 



At February 29, 2008 at 12:36 PM, Blogger Clueless Cat said:
writerkat: very true - if only it were so easy!! :)

littlewing: thank you!

extemporaneous: thank you - I cannot imagine having kids, being married, or even having a mortgage right now!

Amarettogirl: thank you for your comment!
 



At March 26, 2008 at 4:48 PM, Blogger Aaarti said:
Wow, that was so honest n true.. we all go thru it gurl..

Just get back on ur feet and keep going..

NO need to apologize.. it happens- its all part of life..:)

cute blog,1st time here.~!!